6 months off prescription meds

Sometimes I feel like I've never even been here. The world looks like a different place, and my innocence is surely stifled by the experience of making the decision to go off prescription drugs. Somewhere in this the damage of the reality of the situation made me much more vengeful than I'm comfortable with, but for now I had taken things slow recognizing my inner turmoil. I'm starting to let it out, to others I mean. Nobody likes it.
Despite all this, I've decided to try beyond diagnosis. I have gotten them, and I know now more than anything that any diagnosis never sufficiently touches on the entirety of an illness, and doctors surely don't know the way to health, or sanity for that matter. Medical or psychiatric, it tends to be a downward spiral. Finding the self in all this is typically the one thing left out, and the essential piece. I am still here and I plan on getting better, even if sometimes it's hard to believe. I had one doctor tell me I'd never get my heart racing under control (4 months ago) and I already have so f these people. Doctors should be called reporters cause all they give is bad news. A lesson to be learned, never listen to doubt. As it's said by some Irish proverb, "If you must doubt, doubt your doubts, not your beliefs." I'm still working on it. And I still want to be a good person.
So Vitamin C has worked out for me. And I have been starving with a tight stomach and high anxiety and taking a small bit of Niacinamide, (about 100 mg) ramped up my hunger after a two year long struggle to get enough calories. I wolfed down a piece of cake last night now problem. Proud of myself.
I am using the Vitamin Cure for Depression (sounds like drool) but not so much when your struggling with energy issues. It helps better than the drugs because it addresses my body, which is obviously in need of nourishment and is suffering from this so called POTS disorder, which is totally brought on by detoxing these horrible asshole drugs. And the accompanied grief. So yes, a week on about 500-750mg vitamin C a day with exercise had done me good but I had a lapse because my chest was killing me. Killing me. My heart hurt as it beat in the middle of the night, I even went to the doctor about it, who claimed it was my posture. Good job, doc, stupid. So I knew it was my weight, even though I am around 110, it's not enough. I had to stop until the Niacinamide came into mind and I'm back eating more, so I'm really grateful about that. I've added 400mg Folic Acid today, and might add some B6 tomorrow.
I don't have a job, I've been way too sick to do it but I need to. My plan is to get working within the month.

Current Script:
1,000 mg daily Vitamin C (For norepenephrine and dopamine production)
50-100mg Niacinamide (For serotonin production, sleep, appetite increase, and sleep)
400mg Folic Acid* (Regulates serotonin, dopamine, and norephineprine)
20 min a day exercise
Stuffing myself with lots more food

Will update, Tata for now.


*Folic Acid generates L-methylfolate with the help of the enzyme MTHFR (Methylentetrahydrofolate reductase). Some people have low MTHFR activity because of a genetic polymorphism (variation) and should use the pre methylated form called Methylfolate for supplementation. Such persons only recover using this type of folate. You can buy Methylfolate vitamins online or at specialty stores.

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