Abdominal pain ouch.

I'm in the doctors office on campus again seeing an urgent care doctor again for bad abdominal pain today. She seems as confused as any other doctor I've seen this year. She wants another rhumetology  appointment for me. I mentioned to her my theory of the medication allergy and she didn't seem to think that was it. She didn't respond when I explained it anyway. She is taking a couple blood tests. I appreciate her determination and her kind words. She said I have to stay positive and we will find the answer. It hurt exceptionally badly when they took blood. Probably a mixture of dehydration and withdrawal.
I don't want to take any more valium. I can't stand the thought of it any more. The most I will do is take a last dose of. 25mg tonight. I feel very dizzy today like the ground is shaking. I feel like my brain is wrecked from all of these drugs. It is so hard to let go of the anger and the blame. This should have never happened. It is unfair. I wish I never took a pill in my life.
The thing that sucks about not having a diagnosis is that it makes it hard to determine how to help yourself. Im afraid to eat gluten dairy and sugar in case it is parasites or candida. I cant drink alcohol or coffee. Im afraid of trans fats if it is cancer. The pelvic and abdominal inflammation make it so i cant exercise too rigorously.  Basically its hard to have a life, do anything normal, or have fun. Cant eat, think or have sex. Im proud of myself for getting through this and i will be grateful for the rest of my life enjoying the gifts of normalcy.