Inward knowledge.

I received the word "death"  this morning. I have been praying for forgiveness to break the karma I have acquired and about a week ago I received "there have been things done to your body that can't be forgiven." This guidance is scary and I don't know if it is true or not.
The strange thing is I feel so much peace today. Love is in my heart again and my mind is settling. Im just concerned because of this message and I have lost 10 pounds in a week. I am having these heart issues and random pain. But my soul is leveling out and I pray this death is the death of my old self. I want to live I have come so far. I have asked for more clear guidance. I am working on blessing things.