So one of my favorite gifts of detox from antidepressants and benzodiazepines is that you get the joy of getting sick from everything that is healthy for you. And the subsequent freak out that accompanies it.
So what's happened is that my body has stored up so much crap from taking antidepressants, antipsychotics, mood stabalizers, that it all now gets to be released into my bloodstream for detoxification. Organic and raw compounds have little keys in them. They bind to toxins, they unlock metabolic processes and come alongside our own body's efforts to get a job done. They speed up the healing process.
Why does this suck? Because it means that every time I eat a raspberry or anything raw, vegetable or fruit, my body releases toxins into my blood stream and I get sick. SUPER SICK. I develop rashes on my face and in my nose, my skin itches, my scalp itches, my eyes hurt, I become nauseous, fatigued, and moody. I am far from zen.
It has taken me a long time to wrap my head around what the hell is going on. The thought still creeps in my head that I am allergic to all healthy foods, or that I have candida.
Detox is like sitting on a geyser that's waiting to blow, 24/7. I'm still figuring out how to kindly and slowly let off this crap. The best I've done so far is to stay away from junk foods, drinking lots of filtered water, resting, grounding (don't judge), crying (again!), and lots of cooked vegetables. Organic is obvious, and I can't eat at any restaurants without getting sick. I get to live in a bubble.
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