Me and my friend have had two very similar dreams in the past couple days. Interestingly, it is holy week, and there are a series of very intense eclipses happening that are thought to bring things into awareness, especially dark forces or parts of self.
My friend said he had a dream that Yeshua came back in our time, and people did not recognize him, and tried to kill him. This doesn't surprise me, it's exactly what happened in his time. He was God, or Truth, incarnate, and nobody could recognize him as so, because they served a very different truth. In Christian Gnosticism, Jesus tells a creation story that describes the creator of this world, named Yaldoblith. He was the third of three gods, there is God the Father, who created God the Mother, or Sophia (meaning wisdom). Yaldoblith was created by Sophia without God the Father's knowledge (sound a bit like Eve eating the apple in the garden of Eden?) and created this demented creator. He created the Earth, and didn't want the angels or its inhabitants to have knowledge of the true God above him, lest he might lose his power. That's why Jesus was sent into the world, to "cast out the ruler of this world", and to show us the true way back to the kingdom.
Christian Gnosticism means Christian knowledge. Gnosis is the common Greek noun for knowledge. To have gnosis is to have knowledge, and to be a Christian Gnostic is to know and embody the teachings and wisdom (or knowledge) brought to us by Jesus Christ.
One of my own experiences with Christ was about 3 months ago. I began reading a Bible that was given to my parents by one of our neighbors who knew I had been struggling for a long time. I had a very hard time reading it with comfort. I had grown extremely suspect of the church, for some valid, and some not so valid reasons. When I was younger, and happier, I leaned into the church with comfort and ease, and reading again reminded me of that time. I realized how unable I was to trust anymore, as my crisis had become existential at it's core, so I began to pray. I closed my eyes and I could feel and see Jesus sitting on the bed next to me. I knew it was him because his presence feels like the presence of thousands of people. I believe this is his consciousness in those who accept him. There is indeed a body of Christ. The other way I knew it was him was the open wide nature of his presence, as well as the deep knowledge associated it and the pure love. It was like seeing the person you had been missing your whole life, like everything made sense, and I knew everything I need to know in this bright white presence.
When I continued to pray after that, I didn't always get that experience. It took me a while to realize that it's because Jesus yokes us. He shows up on our path to give us just the amount of direction we need to find our way, and to get back on the path. He teaches us how to walk in the dark, until we learn to foster the light within ourselves. "You are the light of the world."
Yesterday I had my own dream. I saw two beasts and they were surprisingly vocal about their purpose and place. They said they were looking for christ inside me, and were there to kill it. They looked like javelinas with hedgehog backs. I realize that sounds really weird, it's just the visual I received.
This is a central theme in Christianity, that parts of ourselves do not wish to recognize Christ, because Christ reveals the truth, and that means the whole truth, even in us. If we don't want to see the things inside ourselves that cover our light, we try to squash him. Christ is truth. "I am the truth the way and the life."
I felt really strongly yesterday that those two beasts were fear. When I brought it to my friend, he felt that they were fear and anger. I think he may be right. I am asking christ to help me defeat these creatures in myself. They are very strong with the illness I am experiencing. I know that he already has made it so.
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